It’s really difficult for us to forget that person with whom we used to talk daily. Really when it’s the last goodbye we can’t really catch that moment. Same excitement since morning it starts and ends the day with relaxation. Your most favourite person is the key to channelize your energy. Loosing that person who was your soulmate, best friend, fire brigade, topping to the simple cake, salt to tasteless food, masala to plain Maggi, I lost that person today. Now I have to eat cake without sugar and food without salt. This kind of pain can’t be expressed through words neither we can get relief through medication this takes months or years just to get out. Just a spark of imagination came in my mind when I was in pain and got admitted in the hospital. After hours of struggle with intense pain at right side abdomen which was only due to gas took my soul out of the body for a moment when my body was not in position to fight, my whole body was shivering with cold and I was sweating due to agony. When it got diagnosed, doctors found out that I have weak muscles and gaseous body due to which the pain strikes . After that I got that much scared even if a little discomfort I feel everything comes back again with panic mode on. I always carry muscular pain relief medicine with me just to be safe. Writing about it is also taking lots of courage because I feel if I share I will suffer from that pain again. Is it only me out their or someone else to?, do share your experience to relief yourself from that. Mine past pain that have gone, which is my past but still haunts me in my present. That was pain but with the person I used to talk at 2am while lying in bed, at 8pm during night walk, at morning texting him good morning, those selected places where I used to sit and talk for hours. All those moments and and places which I see daily and makes my every second in a day really hard for me to come out is their any medicine for it. Those silent cries at day and scary dreams at night, how can I clear away. Opening my phone makes me remind of our texting, calling, video conference and immeasurably more. Those seconds of laugh makes me cry, how to handle. And it feels now difficult for me to get attach to someone. Like me personality gets attach in seconds with the person and takes my months to get back but sometimes those instants gets me back in the same position. What I can do to bring my smile back and myself. My habit to keeping everyone so close to me because no one has done till date for me even a-little to keep me close to their heart. So I try my best that no one in this world who’s around me feels a bit of it. Will write more but not now more…. LAST TEXT FROM MY ❤️, You have to get rid of me, Take care and have a good life without me.
Take care and keep smiling buddies 😊❤️